|—||Isaac Asimov, Foundation (via kushandwizdom)|
between hope and waiting
because my heart doesn’t know
It constantly cuts itself on the glass of waiting
It constantly gets lost in the fog of hope
"A complex of thoughts, feelings, and actions which follow threats to self-esteem and/or threats to the existence or quality of a relationship, when those threats are generated by the perception of a real or potential attraction between one’s partner and a rival."
I hate it when I can’t stop thinking of something. Or in this case, someone: a man.
I hate not being able to sleep at night, seeing him in my dreams. It’s so annoying. I do NOT want to develop feelings……but I guess it’s already too late for that. This sucks.
Should I really be questioning this all the time? Or should I just let it be?
God please give me more will power and the strength to stay strong.
But why am I asking God for a favor if I’m disrespecting him?
Am I going to be punished for this? I should…
"I must admit I was very afraid of you when this whole thing started"
"Because I didn’t know how you were gonna react"
"I know, I remember when I used to get as far away from you as possible. I did all I could to not get close to you"
"Yes, I remember that too.. but I must say you have proved me wrong. You’re a tough cookie"